I think I was looking at the wrong thing.

I kept hearing "RLV", "cages", and "ABDL stuff" and thinking those were the important parts.

But what you're describing sounds more like safety, comfort, and knowing somebody had your back.

The items were just the way you experienced those things.

And without that, it sounds like you've gone from waking up with some curiosity about the day to waking up asking why you should even bother.

Is that closer to what you're trying to explain?